Morning.

The Best:

I've been doing good work at my new job and staying really focused. I hope my good efforts will come back to me with a full-time position.

The Worst:

I told a lie to my husband. I told him I only had a $5 bill when I knew I had a $20 bill.

Night, and Gratitude.

Computer issues kept me away and kept me from attempting to fulfill my re-newed commitment to my personal inventory. Sigh.

The Best:

I took good care of myself today...trying out a scooter that I might buy, resting, going to yoga...I had a good time with me! I also refused to lie for my husband.

The Worst:

I was grumpy with my husband this morning when he was reaching out to me.

Gratitude:

1. I'm grateful for the cool pink scooter that I tested today. Even if I don't buy it, testing it was fun!

2. I'm grateful for milkshakes in a balmy spring night with my husband.

3. I'm grateful for being able to make my mother laugh.

4. I'm grateful, so grateful, for finally feeling a bit more financially secure.

5. I'm grateful for my sore limbs from doing yoga, and I'm glad to be getting stronger.

Night.

The Worst:

I lied to my mother on the phone.

The Best:

I got a lot done with minimal resentment. I got food prepared for the next few days and cleaned the house, which makes it much more pleasant.

Evening.

The Best:

I went to yoga with a friend instead of sleeping in and being horribly lazy.

The Worst:

I lied to the neighbor when he came over looking for my husband. He didn't want to hang out, so I lied for him. I shouldn't have done that.

Night.

The Best:

I taught my students a great lesson today. We analyzed MLK's "I Have A Dream" speech. I hope they learned something and saw the speech in a fresh light.

The Worst:

I told some lies.

Evening.

The Best:

I'm working really hard on finding a home for this little dog. I hope I'm able to do things right for her.

The Worst:

I am telling lies regarding my family's visit. It makes me really uncomfortable, but I don't see a way out of it right now. All I can say is that I am committed to working on a future with fewer lies.

Afternoon.

The Best:

I took my doggy for a long, wonderful walk. She had a great time, as did I. I love to take the both of us on walks together. I don't know why it seems always to take me so long to remember how wonderful it is for the both of us.

The Worst:

I am preparing for lying. My family is coming to visit me, and I am getting all kinds of things ready to hide my husband from them. This character defect is my largest and my most destructive: keeping secrets. I am not sure what is up with my need to have a secret life all the time, but it is exhausting and unhealthy. I hope that I am growing past this long-standing habit.

Morning.

The Worst:

I completed my lie about forgetting the coworker who needed a ride. The boss said it was ok to have forgotten him, though, because she told him there's nothing for him to do while she's not here...so I feel less awful about it. I wish I'd just stood up for myself from the beginning instead of having to do this stupid little dance.

The Best:

This was from yesterday afternoon; good thing I didn't use them up in a post last night, as I've not done too much good today! I better get my ass in gear!

I took two program calls at work and talked to some women who are in relationships with addicts, and it was good to talk to them and listen to them telling about how they're struggling. I hope I helped them out some, if nothing else, just by listening and being willing to take the call.

Afternoon.

The Best:

I've been eating some really healthy, clean food.


The Worst:

I am probably going to tell a lie. I am planning a lie for tomorrow. A coworker who is really annoying (and also drunk) called to ask for a ride, and I said, "Yes," without thinking. I should have said no. It will be out of my way. I did something doubly stupid, though, in that I neglected to say "No," which would have been taking care of myself, and now I'm planning to lie. Big, fat, bad seeds.

Night Time.

The Worst:

My husband asked me if I ate dinner, and for some reason, I didn't want him to know that they served me dinner at the orientation I went to for my new job. I told him I ate at work earlier today. I don't know why I'm pretending like I didn't eat. I think I want him to feel bad for me for having to go to the other job, so I'm pretending not to have had a chance to have dinner. It's pretty stupid and pointless to lie like that.

The Best:

I am trying to be compassionate with him even though he's driving me crazy.

Afternoon.

Best:

I got a lot of work done today, and I was really focused in spite of being distracted by this morning's drama with my husband.

Worst:

I called my husband's aunt, just as I knew I would. I also told people that she called me. I justified saying that she called me because she'd left me a message on my phone that I'd not gotten, so I was calling her back in some ways...however, I didn't know she'd called me when I called her, so it really was just a big lie.