The Best:
I got up really early and went to yoga, and now I'm at work. I'm going to try to work some extra hours so that I can take off some time when my mom is in town, which will be fun.
The Worst:
I couldn't sleep last night for fretting, projecting, resenting. I need to meditate more so that I can help myself to turn off my mind, but I'm a barrelfull of excuses when it's time to get quiet with myself. I also should trust that my higher power will take care of these problems.
Showing posts with label meditation. Show all posts
Showing posts with label meditation. Show all posts
Monday, March 17, 2008
Monday, March 3, 2008
Night.
The Best:
I went to a meditation session tonight, and I did my best to practice loving kindness for myself and for others. When I got home, I climbed in bed with my husband and tried to breathe all of my desire for him to feel loved, to feel forgiven, and to heal onto him. He was not responsive, but it was ok. I was separate enough from a need for him to respond that I could just love him without need for reciprocity.
The Worst:
I am being lazy about preparing for my classes, both the one tomorrow and the two new ones.
I went to a meditation session tonight, and I did my best to practice loving kindness for myself and for others. When I got home, I climbed in bed with my husband and tried to breathe all of my desire for him to feel loved, to feel forgiven, and to heal onto him. He was not responsive, but it was ok. I was separate enough from a need for him to respond that I could just love him without need for reciprocity.
The Worst:
I am being lazy about preparing for my classes, both the one tomorrow and the two new ones.
Friday, February 29, 2008
Morning.
I didn't write last night. I am not sure if I should try to make up for not writing when I skip or move on to now. Last night was complicated.
The Best:
I shared with my boss about a meditation session that I am planning to attend.
The Worst:
Once again, I am stealing from work by doing outside work here. I started by doing step work for my 12 step writing workshop, and then I did work for my job interview for another adjunct teaching position I have this afternoon. I am still working on the material for the job interview.
I am having a hard time with this problem. I do want to plant good seeds; I don't want to steal. However, I don't like the owner of the company, and I don't have enough work to do to keep me fully busy. I need the money since my husband isn't working. I know I am justifying my issues. There is work related to this job that I could do, like further networking or organizing artwork, but I feel that my needs are more pressing than living honestly while at work.
I can tell when I am justifying because I indulge in lots of "buts" and "yets" and "becauses."
The Best:
I shared with my boss about a meditation session that I am planning to attend.
The Worst:
Once again, I am stealing from work by doing outside work here. I started by doing step work for my 12 step writing workshop, and then I did work for my job interview for another adjunct teaching position I have this afternoon. I am still working on the material for the job interview.
I am having a hard time with this problem. I do want to plant good seeds; I don't want to steal. However, I don't like the owner of the company, and I don't have enough work to do to keep me fully busy. I need the money since my husband isn't working. I know I am justifying my issues. There is work related to this job that I could do, like further networking or organizing artwork, but I feel that my needs are more pressing than living honestly while at work.
I can tell when I am justifying because I indulge in lots of "buts" and "yets" and "becauses."
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