Evening.

It's hard to keep up on the weekends.

Best:

I was supportive of my husband and helped him out without taking on his problems as my own. That's quite a feat for me...finding balance between being supportive and carrying his load for him.

Worst:

I went compulsively shopping...or perhaps I should call it not-shopping. I had this idea that I'd turn the spare room into a meditation room, so I started cleaning it and rearranging the furniture accordingly this afternoon. I decided the room would be more appealing if it were painted, so I went to Home Depot to buy paint. When I heard how much it would cost, I declined to purchase it. Then I went to Wal-Mart and thought I'd buy some fabric to pin to the walls and brighten the place up a bit, but the fabric started to seem extravagant, so I didn't buy it, either. The worst part was that I made the poor woman who worked in fabrics cut the material for me, and then I put it down in another section when I decided not to buy it. I wasted my time and her own.

This shopping and not buying thing is something I do far too much. It's compulsive and depressing, and I should find a way to stop. I think I should give myself a budget of $20 a week to fix up the house, and then I will be able to shop in a manageable manner. I will be able to fulfill my need to decorate my home to make it more pleasant, and it is important to take care of myself in these ways; but it will keep me from wasting my own and others' time and energy.