Evening

Best

I had a good evening. I emailed the person who was responsible for collecting money for the seminar I was fretting about earlier, and I think I handled my anxieties well. I have been looking for feedback on the amends letter I am writing to my ex-husband for my ninth step, and that was a difficult, but important, thing to work on. I also spoke with another friend with whom I'd had a bit of a rift, and we seem to have made amends with one another in a mutually satisfying way. I've been kind to my husband. I walked the dogs, and I spent time with my cat. I cleaned out the bathroom, which was a project I'd been meaning to do for a while, but I'd been putting it off.

I am starting to see ways that keeping this journal is really helping me to hold myself accountable. I hope I keep it up.

Worst

I was less than honest on the phone with my family. I am not sure what I am going to have to do to repair the deeply ingrained dishonesty I have established with them. They only know a small section of my life, so every time I speak with them, I am lying in many ways.

My only guess is that by trying to establish honesty in all future interactions with my family to the best of my ability, and by really coming to understand how destructive this behavior had been for me. I hope that by living my amends, I can find some restoration of balance in my own life.